tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-90038082031860552432024-03-14T08:24:17.680-07:00Halloween is EverydayMagic exists all around us, you just have to believe.Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.comBlogger131125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-55981915761968014432013-12-11T16:39:00.000-08:002013-12-11T16:39:15.493-08:00I've moved to a whole new universe!So I've kind of moved away from here and gone onto Tumblr. Oh well. But if anyone is interested, you can follow me at:
www.tumblr.com/blog/ltldollclaudia
I actually post there a LOT and upload all the crazy stuff I've been building.
Curious?
Go check it out.
Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-17283519423627195742012-03-24T18:23:00.000-07:002012-03-24T18:43:29.884-07:00My midlife crisisWell, turns out that apparently the insurance needs us to pay them an almost $2000 deductible before I can go get my medical issues taken care of. ~sigh~ So while I'm waiting for my surgery, I decided that since I cannot go back to work until it gets done, I was going to make a drastic change. To my hair, that is. I figure that it'll grow back and I can re-color it once I am all fixed.
Here's what it used to look like:
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And here's how I look now.
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So there it is.
It's rough for Jack and I to try to get all that money together seeing as he is on disability and I'm on unemployment. I really don't know how we're going to do it. I do my best to stay positive and not let Jack see me upset. He doesn't need that. And time is marching on. My benefits won't last forever and it scares the hell out of me.
The longer it takes for me to get my surgery, the sicker I get. And I hide a lot of how I'm feeling from my loving husband. It's a vicious cycle that can only be fixed with the surgery that I have no money for. You see my dilemma?
Arrgh.
Until next time...Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-5211946496431597412011-09-18T22:37:00.000-07:002011-09-18T22:41:26.685-07:00I really need to not leave this by the wayside...So much has happened...but I'll just give a quick summation for this post.<br /><br />We moved into a house, Jack is now on disability and I'm on unemployment.<br /><br />But it's a good thing. We have professionals interested in the show, so soon we won't have money issues anymore. Well, Goddess willing, anyway.<br /><br />I unfortunately have no insurance, so my surgery never happened. ~sigh~<br /><br />I am going to keep my head up and stay positive though. <br /><br />I have to.<br /><br />I will post more soon. <br /><br />Until next time...Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-79473739831978211112011-05-19T03:36:00.000-07:002011-05-19T03:45:53.524-07:00It continues on.So after a very interesting doc visit, I am on yet again a new drug regimen.<br /><br />The gyn I saw is a specialist and his opinion is that I have Interstital Cystisis, also known as IC. He is concerned about the other stuff as well, but he's thinking my<br />pain is from IC as my bladder is somewhat weak and very tender.<br /><br />So now I'm on meds for that as well as estrogen since the DEPO shot is causing me to be ultra moody.<br /><br />I do have another appt on July 6th. They are going to check just what is going on with my bladder and such.<br /><br />After that, then I get my surgery. Exploratory, as it is. This doc doesn't want to just slice in until he has all the facts and if the meds can help me, great.<br /><br />Yeah, I know. I didn't have PID, so that trial was useless. <br /><br />~sighs~<br /><br />I'm just tired of hurting all the time and not being able to do what I want to do, like relax and not stress about where's the nearest bathroom. Or geez, actually be intimate with my husband without crying afterwards from the pain.<br /><br />I'm trying to be so patient.<br /><br />I really am.<br /><br />Oy.<br /><br />Until next time...Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-78451671695675575552011-05-15T17:23:00.000-07:002011-05-15T17:50:58.528-07:00It's that time of year again!!!!Haunt 2011 mazes have been announced! And the 3 new entries are...<br /><br />Delirium<br />In the deep recesses of the mind, on the clouded brink of insanity, lies the hellish wasteland of delirium; a place so gruesome that your imagination fails to comprehend the horrors. Illusion and paranoia are your only anchors to reality. Welcome to your worst nightmare!<br /><br />Invasion Beneath<br />LIVE FROM KNOTT’S BERRY FARM: Details are sketchy but eyewitnesses report that the Calico Mine Ride has been invaded by creatures of unknown origin through a large fissure in the earth’s core. The creatures posses advanced weaponry and are extremely hostile. The military has just infiltrated the mountain to try and rescue the survivors and combat the violent attacks. Stay tuned.<br /><br />ENDGAMES: Warriors of the Apocalypse<br />The world as we know it has ended. The survivors in this barren desert have scavenged to rebuild society. The rich and the powerful have turned all others into slaves for sport. Enter the post apocalyptic arena where gladiators are forced to battle to their deaths for entertainment. Are you game?<br /><br />RETURNING MAZES<br /><br />Fallout Shelter (in 3D)<br />Locked in a cement grave for decades, hidden deep below the depths of the lake, an abandoned fallout shelter is crawling with human /genetic hybrids, toxic mutants, and a host of nuclear freaks all hungry for carnage. Grab your Geiger counters and put on your radiation suits, these residents are ravenous.<br /><br />Sleepy Hollow<br />Ghosts and ghouls, witches and goblins, long legged beasts and things that go bump in the night are all at your heels as you travel through Sleepy Hollow. Specters and phantoms and legends of long ago haunt the living. Can you outrun the Headless Horseman? Can you keep your wits, or will you lose your head as well?<br /><br />Virus Z<br />Welcome to Pleasanton – Population: Zero. The highly infectious virus Z has turned the entire town into cannibal zombies and you’re this week’s special. Hordes of bloodthirsty corpses roam the small town in search of fresh meat. Help has arrived, but they are not on a rescue mission – they are here to wall off the entire town from civilization.<br /><br />Lockdown: The Asylum<br />The inmates really are running the asylum in this nightmare prison, and insanity reigns supreme. The inmates are out of their cells and their minds. And don’t scream for help, this hostile takeover has the authorities running for cover!<br /><br />Terror of London<br />Step back in time and into the fog-filled streets of London where a host of infamous characters are on the prowl terrorizing city dwellers. Step lively or you may fall victim to Jack the Ripper’s blade or Dr. Jekyll’s twisted experiments as Big Ben rings out. God save the Queen…..and you!<br /><br />Dia De Los Muertos<br />Venture into the forbidden jungle of El Chupacabra where sacrificial blood rains down from the sky. The screams of La Llorona, the Weeping Woman, echo around you and the creatures of the night crawl from their crypts, the “Day of the Dead” has arrived!<br /><br />Uncle Bobo’s Big Top of the Bizarre (3D)<br />Step right up! Don’t be shy! Welcome to Uncle Bobo’s Big Top of the Bizarre. Inside you will find a villainous variety of vaudevillian visages to vex even the most valiant voyeurs! It’s the greatest slaughter on earth with clown carnage galore!<br /><br />The Slaughterhouse<br />Folk’s from near and far come a-runnin for Farmer Willy’s world famous BBQ! You can smell the sizzling meat from miles away. Farmer Willy will think you are prime<br />beef as he sets out to auction you off to the highest bidder, tenderize you with his chainsaw, and grind you into a tasty meat treat. Bon Appétit!<br /><br />The Doll Factory<br />A trip to the Doll Factory reveals a twisted museum of death and disfigurement as you are pursued by the Marionette Murderer, a psychotic killer who turns his beautiful victims into life-size porcelain dolls.<br /><br />Corn Stalkers<br />It’s harvest time and the crop is you in Corn Stalkers. Plunge into rows and rows of rotting corn and try to evade the blood thirsty monstrosities seeking to impale you on their razor sharp scythes.<br />~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~<br /><br />These of course replace Club Blood, Black Widow Cavern and Labyrinth. <br /><br />Now my personal opinion is well, like usual. First for the departing mazes.<br /><br />Club Blood for me was never really a vampy maze although this last year it did improve a HELL of a lot. I for one won't miss it, even though it does mean this year will be the first year in a long time there will not be a vampire maze at Haunt.<br /><br />Black Widow Cavern I did enjoy, of course. But as I said a few years back, there's only so much you can do with spiders. I'll miss it a bit. A moment of silence for that, please.<br /><br />And Labyrinth. Huh. ~sighs~ Oh, it was pretty and the talent divine. But mazes are supposed to be scary, and sadly this missed the mark. So no real sadness for this one either.<br /><br />But on to my predictions for this year. <br /><br />Does anyone but me notice an odd theme here? Apocalypse and such? Hmmm, says I.<br /><br />Because correct me if I'm wrong and I might be, the 3 new ones seem to be slight variations of each other.<br /><br />Delirium: This could be a grand throwback to the Asylum theme, which I course loved. But they still have Lockdown AND Fallout Shelter, both of which feed on claustrophobia and darkness. Not that I'm complaining, but it will interesting to see just how they make this work.<br /><br />Invasion Beneath: (Mine Train) Ah now, this could be rather interesting. Although the mention of weaponry makes me wonder if it'll be a re-imagined version of The Underground. Which was a fantastic maze, but on the Mine Train? Hmmm, that may be a tad reaching. The reason Underground worked was you were trapped in this industrial holocaustic aftermath that you stumbled through. Being in a mine car will definitely need some real good scares.<br /><br />Endgames: Oh boy. I just...wow. To me, this sounds like a cross between Mad Max and The Running Man. It'll be a fun maze. Yeah. Fun. Not scary. Guys dressed up in scraps of metal and carrying various items of destruction are great for me to laugh at, not scream. But who knows?<br /><br />So there we are. I am excited for the other returning mazes. My only requests are that Cornstalkers gets back to its former glory of spookiness, that Lockdown has more creeps in it, The Doll Factory gets their dollies in tip top scare mode, and that Slaughterhouse brings back the gore it knew so well in the first year. <br /><br />Everything else was damn incredible. <br /><br />I cannot wait for October. How about you?<br /><br />Until next time....Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-19455769583986362662011-05-15T03:43:00.000-07:002011-05-15T03:53:31.498-07:00Well, yeah. That's just fun.So...update.<br /><br />I had my ultrasound.<br /><br />Turns out I have a veritable amusement park going on. I have several cysts on my ovaries and fallopian tubes, I have a fibrous mass on my uterus and the possible beginnings of endometriosis. Yay.<br /><br />Not only that, but it does seem I do have PID, so I am on new meds for that. Once I finish the meds, then the doc will let me know when my surgery will be.<br /><br />~sighs~ <br /><br />Also, I had the misfortune of being suspended for 3 days due to my medical issue. Thankfully, the GM read over my file and reinstated me. <br /><br />I am kind of on a probation thing now, I guess.<br /><br />Then I got sick from my lovely husband. I only got a cold, but his became bronchitis. Whoohoo. Not only did he get me sick, but everyone else in the apt got some kind of ickiness.<br /><br />So my immune system is all screwy.<br /><br />Oh well.<br /><br />I do have a dr appt on Wed at 10:30am, so hopefully he will let me know what our next step will be.<br /><br />Because man, I'm tired of feeling like this.<br /><br />Until next time....Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-40176137862875174982011-04-28T02:59:00.000-07:002011-04-28T03:25:41.470-07:00And here's how it goes. (sensitive subject matter ahead)So now that I am on NO meds whatsoever, the pain is back in triplicate. It really is annoying to have this constant pressure and feel like I have to go to the bathroom all the time.<br /><br />I have been taking ibuprofen, but its relief is limited and I really don't want to boost up the dosage to then become immune. <br /><br />And for the TMIness of it all, I still have not been able to be intimate with my husband for over a month now. Oh, sure we "relieve his tension", but as far as myself? Oh hell no. <br /><br />Even though I'm going insane with need. Because EVERYTHING freakin' hurts. <br /><br />Part of me just wants to say hell with it and have sex. Even though I'll be screaming in pain afterwards. <br /><br />But I'm afraid that it will worsen whatever is going on. <br /><br />I truly hope the ultrasound can give us all some clues. And the gyn. I was thinking about asking for a D & C so they can test the tissue. Yeah, it's not typical procedure, but dammit. At this point, I just want some real answers.<br /><br />I went to go see Keith today and I had to explain in the simplest of terms what was going on with me. He knew I had a dr appt and he was concerned about me. That was difficult as how do you tell someone that believes you to be invincible and immortal that you're in fact not?<br /><br />I think I succeeded though.<br /><br />I'm trying my best not to be stressed, but I guess it won't make a damn bit of a difference until after my 2 latest appts.<br /><br />I do hope it's not serious, but at the same time I do, because then whatever I have will be dealt with and I can finally move on to have NO pain.<br /><br />At least not in that fashion.<br /><br />Ergh. I'm way too tired right now. I feel myself getting all morose.<br /><br />And we can't have that.<br /><br />So it's off of here and focus on going home to see my husband, my cats, and my bed for some much needed sleep.<br /><br />Night all.Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-44486755129650821722011-04-26T03:12:00.000-07:002011-04-26T03:32:09.929-07:00Always an adventure...So as most of my family and friends know, I have been suffering from pelvic pain for a while. I was unable to go into the doctor until recently as I didn't have insurance. But to be honest, I was also freakin' scared to know what was going on.<br /><br />I finally started to see a doctor at Kaiser at the beginning of April. I got the customary tests, and was told that I possibly had vaginosis, a bacterial infection. I was given meds for that as well as for my overactive bladder issue. Neither one of the meds worked.<br /><br />I then went back in and the same doctor then said that it was possible I had PID (Pelvic Inflammatory Disease) even though I had none of the things that usually predict it, such as gonorrhea or chlamydia. So she gave me meds for that.<br /><br />It promptly made me sick and caused me to call into work. I went back and was given "another set" of meds. Which also made me sick and caused me to call off work again. <br /><br />Unfortunately, even though I did get dr notes, my work policy is you need to call 2 hours before your shift. I woke up an hour before and became ill. So I got written up for that. I do have a meeting with my GM next week to present my case to her. But more on that in a minute.<br /><br />I was sick for three days as my body cleansed itself of the meds. I went back to the doc today. On a lucky twist of fate, my regular doc was not available and I went to see someone else. Lo and behold, this doc had a totally different opinion.<br /><br />She examined me and said that from her reading my chart as well, I had NO infection. She was also concerned that I had received a DEPO shot to control my cycle as it was causing my body more stress. That the meds aggravated my pain.<br /><br />Her recommendation was to have a gyn and ultrasound appt as soon as possible as she believes I may have something wrong with my uterus and based on findings, may require surgery, i.e. a hysterectomy. <br /><br />Which made me laugh in my sleeve as I've been joking about that for years as I no longer need my organs of that nature since I'm no longer a breeder.<br /><br />She also forbid me to take any more antibiotics as it would just make me sick for no reason.<br /><br />So I have 2 two appts for the first week of May. <br /><br />With that knowledge in hand, I am going to take ALL of my paperwork to my GM and explain to her what has been going on. That I am also going to file a claim against my doc for negligence, as she was treating me improperly.<br /><br />Then I find out that both my grandmother and aunt may have had the exact same thing. So I will have to inform my doc of that as well. <br /><br />Fun times, yeah?<br /><br />At least my dear husband can breathe again knowing I'm not going to die tomorrow. He's been so worried about me, poor thing. I hate putting him through this. I love him so much for being there to help me.<br /><br />I will keep this updated as soon as I know more.<br /><br />Love to all...Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-17648383828503505012011-03-09T02:40:00.000-08:002011-03-09T03:06:25.696-08:00And here we are.Well, it's Day 2 of the Mighty Migraine. <br /><br />You know, I am really tired of this. Not to be throwing the TMI card, but it happens once a month. Yeah, I know I need to get myself to see a doc. I really have no excuse now. I do have insurance. <br /><br />It's just the fact we still have no car that makes a lot of things awkward. It turns something that should possibly take 30 minutes into a 2 hour or longer event.<br /><br />And having no car is really affecting my sleep. I have to get up 2 hours before my shift so I can be there on time.<br /><br />Yes, I know that others do it, take the bus to work and all that. But...and I cannot believe I'm going to admit this, I'm not 20 anymore. I work an overnight job 5 nights a week. It's taxing on me.<br /><br />Don't get me wrong. I love my job. When I'm not dragging ass, that is.<br /><br />But that's the problem. Like today, I just kept waking up. An hour or so here and there. It's ridiculous.<br /><br />Oh well. There are things to look forward to so I shouldn't complain too much, yeah?<br /><br />Like St. Pats and cornbeef, mmm. Even though we'll have to do it on the Sunday before, or the following Sunday. Just because I have Sundays off. I'm sure the family won't care.<br /><br />That is one thing that has evolved and is pretty nice. Well, usually. Sunday nights have become family night. I cook, we relax and Jack does the radio show. <br /><br />Except this last Sunday. I had a friend of mine come over and we went to Dave and Buster's. We didn't get back until 11pm. Oops. But he and I had a really good time together. No one was upset, just being smart alecks. "Where's dinner, Mom?" that kind of thing.<br /><br />But no worries. <br /><br />I am going to go back to writing my story now. Just wanted to check in.<br /><br />Until next time...Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-14458437526033048732011-03-02T09:30:00.000-08:002011-03-02T09:42:32.566-08:00So...yeah.Not that I'm really complaining as the end result is sure to be made of awesome...<br /><br />But last night at work was weird. Half of our front desk is blocked off by a wall of plastic sheeting.<br /><br />It gives one the feeling of claustrophobia, having to emerge from behind a corner flap.<br /><br />We are going through a MAJOR renovation to the hotel to be finished in April. Again, I am excited as the rooms are looking pretty spiffy.<br /><br />Our three top floors have been set to 6 themes and I must say they do brighten up the place. We're across from Disneyland and it was only natural that we have Disney themes in those rooms. We have Pirates, Toy Story, Finding Nemo, Princesses, Cars, and of course Classic Mickey.<br /><br />Everything has been replaced...beds, carpets, plumbing, fresh paint, the works. It smells sooooo clean in there!<br /><br />Our front desk isn't having a total overhaul, but the counters will now be a granite finish and there is supposed to be a fancy wall mural to accentuate it.<br /><br />I will post pics as soon as everything is done.<br /><br />I just have to suffer a few more days.<br /><br />Until next time...Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-12390422777293272952011-03-01T10:53:00.001-08:002011-03-01T10:57:22.396-08:00I decided to re-start my journal...And get ready. It's gonna be a LONG post.<br /><br />So let's see, my last post was in what August? So a ton of things have happened since that time.<br /><br />In September 2010, I finally got off my ass and got out of the HIE and into a hotel that is 100 times better where they have a proper management system and treat their employees like humans. Yeah, I know.<br /><br />I'm still doing Audit, but I am making a hell of a lot more and have full benes. Whoo! And I'm right across from Disney again. YAY! <br /><br />In October 2010, 10-10-10 to be exact, Jack and I finally were married. It was a splendid ceremony, not at Knott's like we had been trying for, but another venue that actually worked out so much better. It was at The Empty Grave, a maze located at the Anaheim Gardenwalk owned by some of Jack's friends. That had some of our family and closest friends attending, even most of my family was there. <br /><br />I will post a different blog with pics for that soon.<br /><br />Also was of course Haunt, and this year was a group trip, with Jack, Alex, Keith, Alex's boyfriend Paul and myself. And we had a blast as usual. Keith was already chomping at the bit asking for Haunt in 2011. I love that boy.<br /><br />November went by nicely and I was able to have a small Thanksgiving with my turkey and all the trimmings.<br /><br />December was busy, busy as all of us were working and possibly trying to move into a house with our friend Kile. I hadn't planned on putting up the tree or really celebrating, but to my surprise I came home Christmas morning to see that the tree and some decor was up as well as some gifts under the tree. That was a very sweet thing to do and a nice day. I also received my 3 month review to which I got a very good result.<br /><br />January? Well, January was a pretty smooth month. Not too many things, basic life stuff.<br /><br />But February....ah, now this past month was a lot to deal with. On the 8th, I had my birthday. We of course went to Disneyland and spent the whole day there. It was great fun as always. <br /><br />But then tragedy happened on the 9th. A friend of mine(James' brother)was over visiting and he got a call from James' girlfriend. It was her saying that James was in the emergency room and that he was going home after being there for 6 hours. No one knew what was wrong, only that he had pain. But since the tests showed nothing, they discharged him. They had not called his brother as James had not wanted to alarm him, but the girlfriend finally gave in and called.<br /><br />My friend went home and then called me a bit later saying James was on his way back to the hospital and he would let me know as soon as he heard anything.<br /><br />I was on pins and needles as yes, James had some issues, but there was no real danger as far as we all knew. We were making plans for him to move in with us once Kile got the house so he could get out of his mom's place. <br /><br />But at 2:40am on Feb. 10th, I got the call that James was gone. I lost it. I couldn't believe it. I had just talked to him the day before, his brother had dinner with him and he seemed okay. It was a shock to all of us. Yes, he had high blood pressure, yes he had problems with has back due to the rods in it from his accident many years before, but nothing prepared us for this. <br /><br />He was only 27 years old. I didn't know how to react. I tried to go into work that night after crying for hours on end, but I couldn't do it. My manager took one look at me and said to go home, that I should be at home. I said okay and went home to lie in my bed. I called off for the next couple of days to try to recover. <br /><br />Thing was, James and I got very close and he became a best friend to me. I didn't realize how close until that horrible phone call. I crumbled. And it was hard for me to go back to work, knowing that we wouldn't have our kooky 3am IM conversations or that he and his girl would not come over and hang out like they used to.<br /><br />Then on the 18th, it was his funeral. That was terrible, seeing all of his family and most of his friends, most of them folks I knew as well having to say goodbye. I got up and said my tribute, Jack by my side, stammering out the words. I just wanted him to sit up, say it was all a gag, that he wasn't dead. Like it was the best Halloween type prank ever. But it didn't happen.<br /><br />Then we went to the graveside service and that was even more awful as then it was final. The casket was closed. But the worst was yet to come. James' mom sought me out as her and I had not met each other yet. She hugged me for a long time, telling me how James had loved Jack and I. That she was always hearing about us and how glad she was we were his friends. She went on to say that yes, she knew he had been making plans to move in with us, but in a way she was glad we hadn't moved yet as she got more time to be with him. <br /><br />That made me bawl again. I knew he cared, but not like that. It was such a great thing to know, but it hurt so much at the same time. <br /><br />Afterwards, I went to his brother's house with a few others and we sat around talking and we had a few drinks. Now add this to the 2 Monsters I had as well as having worked my Audit shift the night before. We were all trying to forget the events of the day and when I got home, I tried to sleep. But my body was overworn. I began shaking uncontrollably. Jack made me go to emergency. <br /><br />The doctor put me on an IV and I drained that bag dry. I told him about the last few days and he said I was suffering from massive fatigue and dehydration. I was ordered to not go back to work for the next 2 days.<br /><br />This scared my husband and he watched over me like a hawk, making sure I ate, drank fluids, and got rest before I went back to work.<br /><br />So now we are all trying to move forward and pick up the pieces. It really sucks as there are SO many things he and I talked about and shared. I get these twinges and it makes me feel miserable. <br /><br />But I'm getting better. Or at least trying to.<br /><br />It comes and goes.<br /><br />His brother of course took it hard and I racked my brain to try to help him. We talked and it helped a little. I am trying to be strong as I know that's what James would want. Finally, this last week, I stumbled upon something that we could do and we went out, just he and I. On the 27th, we went to the shooting range. <br /><br />I had never been and it was weird how doing that activity really was a release of so much tension. It was therapeutic for him as well. We plan on going again soon. <br /><br />Of course, it doesn't ease the sadness completely, oh no. But it was nice to be able to lose myself in something for a teensy while. <br /><br />So that's the gist of the news for right this moment. I am going to go and make myself busy as now my brain is full of memories and I need to not start crying again, because I promised I'd take care of myself.<br /><br />I'll write again soon. <br /><br />Until next time...Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-16673880222211180822010-08-14T01:29:00.000-07:002010-08-14T01:34:54.209-07:00It's been far too long...So I know I kind of left this blog on the wayside. Sorry about that.<br /><br />I am going to try to get back on track with it. A TON of things have happened. Of course..since I haven't posted since back in DEC!<br /><br />But to catch everyone up, we got a new apt, Alex got a job, Jack and I are getting married in October (for sure this time) and we have 2 adorable cats named Vash and Boris.<br /><br />Life has thrown us a few curveballs, but as we always say, "We're a team, and we'll make it work."<br /><br />I'll do my best to stay on top of this. I at least owe it to my sister so she knows I'm not dead. -laughs-<br /><br />See you all on the flip side.Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-62184306585839742982009-12-25T00:01:00.000-08:002009-12-25T00:01:03.568-08:00Tis the season...<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiA9F-2-MUJ2k7Oja-JKgyMaw7ic-1G5ETcIJWObGR5D6C5eg1pg7XaN_H4GamlbxX1WLOI1SbfdgBlyPqhI83tWSEY6VVmoIyIvhhHW-zbSb_5DHXJio-cbs_a6-JcxdPiDxi0laAZn7Q/s1600-h/XmasVintageVictorianGirls.jpg"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 126px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiA9F-2-MUJ2k7Oja-JKgyMaw7ic-1G5ETcIJWObGR5D6C5eg1pg7XaN_H4GamlbxX1WLOI1SbfdgBlyPqhI83tWSEY6VVmoIyIvhhHW-zbSb_5DHXJio-cbs_a6-JcxdPiDxi0laAZn7Q/s200/XmasVintageVictorianGirls.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5418770891417993378" /></a>Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-42478109857696091752009-12-24T03:11:00.000-08:002009-12-24T14:20:09.414-08:00Ah, it wouldn't be Christmas without dramaSo, my kids went to go visit their dad for Xmas. Now, it was a bit shady from the getgo and I will explain that in just a moment.<br /><br />I get a text from my son a week ago saying that he is going with his aunts to visit their dad and Alex is going too. I say oh, okay. I want them to go see him as he will leaving to Afghanistan on Feb. 14th, so any time they can spend is good. Alex then tells me about it as well. <br /><br />But, here's the thing. I never get a call from the aunts about it. Not that I need them to ask permission, but common courtesy, you know? Especially since it's for a week and during Xmas. They left on the 20th and were supposed to come back on the 26th. <br /><br />Notice I said supposed to? Uh-huh. It's not gonna be that way. First off, I found out that they figured that since Alex is 18, they shouldn't have to say anything to me about anything. Okay then, I let that one slide. Even though Alex does live with me...<br /><br />Then there was a row about Alex standing up for Keith as the aunts were yelling at him about something. It got misconstrued and the assumption was that they (the aunts) were not welcome. They left the kids with their dad and went to a hotel.<br /><br />So, all right...apparently other things were said and it was going to be that the aunts would come back on Xmas Day to open presents, but then pick up the kids on Sat. at 6am to drive them back. Well, from the earlier actions and words that had occurred, the kids' dad said that he would take them home himself. <br /><br />But he would not be able to bring them home until Jan. 3rd. See, his worry was that since they had already played the non communication button with me and judging how they were treating Alex, then what was to stop them from stranding her somewhere with limited phone service. She's 18, find your own way home kind of deal.<br /><br />Now I said I really don't think that would happen, but then again...<br /><br />So he texts his sister to let her know he would take them home and to not worry about it. She, in a shocking moment, says, "Then guess we no longer have a brother, niece or nephew. You are all dead to us. Have a nice life and we are going home tomorrow." <br /><br />Now me of course, said that maybe she's just angry and will get past it, even though that's a horrible thing to say. But he is convinced that they are serious, given their past history with the family anyway. <br /><br />-sigh- I told him there is one good thing about it and that's thankfully it happened now rather than them sitting there and hearing the nonsense the 13 hour drive back. He did apologize to me about it. I said it was fine, I am just glad they are safe.<br /><br />So I already asked for the 5th and 6th off, that's when the kids and I will have our Christmas. <br /><br />-shakes her head- Family, gotta love them.Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-67075081011187370972009-11-24T17:35:00.001-08:002009-11-24T17:35:46.913-08:00So it's been a LONG time..A lot has happened, but I will go into that in my next post. I am actually trying this out on my Sidekick, so let's see if this works. Bye for now. Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-74514835210809122272009-07-25T12:37:00.000-07:002009-07-25T12:44:09.941-07:00It's coming, it's coming!!The lineup for Halloween Haunt 2009 has been announced! My predictions to come in the next post.<br /><br />LOCKDOWN: THE ASYLUM New for 2009 – The GhostRider 1<br />Insanity reigns supreme in this maniacal nightmare prison. The inmates are out of their cells and their minds! The bars keep the inmates inside…and the authorities out! Every turn takes you deeper into the danger. There is no escape from Lockdown!<br /><br />TERROR OF LONDON New for 2009 – Mystery Lodge<br />Step back in time and into the fog filled streets of London. The villains of the night are terrorizing the townsfolk! Step lively or you'll fall victim to Jack the Ripper's blade or Dr. Jekyll's twisted experiments. Will you make it out in one piece...or in pieces?<br /><br />DIA DE LOS MUERTOS in 3D New for 2009 – Bumper Cars<br />Sacrificial blood rains down from the skies. The screams of La Llorona, the Weeping Woman, echo all around as the creatures of the night crawl from their decrepit crypts. Venture into the forbidden jungle of El Chupacabra and the blood soaked lair of primordial demons. “Dia de los Muertos”, the Day of the Dead, has arrived.<br /><br /><br />UNCLE BOBO’S BIG TOP OF THE BIZARRE in 3D New for 2009 – Xcelerator<br />Step right up! Don’t be shy! Welcome to the Big Top of the Bizarre! Uncle Bob is here to demonstrate his devious delights! Inside you’ll find a villainous variety of vaudevillian visages to vex even the most valiant voyeurs! Welcome to the greatest slaughter on earth!<br /><br />THE SLAUGHTERHOUSE – Main Gate Area<br />Folks from near and far come a-runnin’ for Farmer Willy’s world famous BBQ! Why you can smell the sizzling meat all the way from the interstate! Just take Exit I-13 and follow your nose! Venture through the Slaughterhouse where Farmer Willy will auction you off to the highest bidder, tenderize you with his chainsaw, and grind you into a tasty meat treat. Bone appetite!<br /><br />CORN STALKERS – Stage Coach Trail<br />It’s harvest time and the crop is you! Plunge into the rows of rotting corn and try to evade blood thirsty monstrosities seeking to impale you on their razor sharp scythes. Danger is all around you; the stalks of corn are both your salvation and your doom.<br /><br />ALIEN ANNIHILATION in 3D – The Lake (3D Laser Tag)<br />Begin transmission: – last entry log of deep space mining vessel Korova Matushka – ship has crashed – following homing beacon – discovery of alien ship – infestation imminent – send help – send help – end transmission.<br />Lock and load for a descent into the depths of an alien war. Your only companion is your mega-round-thrust repeater rifle and the hordes of alien invaders that threaten to take over the planet. The air lock is opening – prepare for Alien Annihilation!<br /><br /><br /><br />THE LABYRINTH – Balloon Race<br />Take a journey through a forgotten forest, into the dark catacombs that lie beneath a ruined castle. The evil king has long since passed on but his cursed court still haunts the halls of the mysterious labyrinth. Don’t lose your way as you twist and turn through chambers unknown and vainly try to escape the menagerie of mythical monsters that roam the never-ending corridors.<br /><br />QUARANTINE – Fiesta Plaza<br />In March 2008, the U.S. Government issued an emergency order sealing off an apartment complex in Los Angeles. A HazMat team was sent to investigate the quarantined building. Authorities have now denied any knowledge of the incident. The residents were never heard from again. There were no explanations; there was no evidence, until now. Experience the truth for yourself when you try to escape Sony Pictures’, Quarantine.<br /><br />CLUB BLOOD – GhostRider 2<br />Welcome to Club Blood where the music is hypnotic and the cocktails are bloody. In the dark underbelly of the city, human victims are drained of their life to nourish the children of the night. Join the hypnotic dance macabre and explore the dark side of the undead.<br /><br />THE DOLL FACTORY – Wilderness Dance Hall<br />In an old, abandoned toy factory, the Marionette Murderer, a psychotic serial killer turns his beautiful victims into life-size porcelain dolls for his personal collection. Tour his twisted museum of death and disfigurement, and hope to escape his mechanical lair.<br /><br />PYROMANIAX – Log Ride<br />A fire bursts out on the mountain due to a tragic accident at the resident Moonshine Factory. It seems the locals have been using toxic waste to make their libation, and now the lethal fumes are turning everyone (including the Fire Fighters) into murderous mutants.<br /><br />BLACK WIDOW’S CAVERN– Mine Ride<br />Dare to enter the old, abandoned mine, now overrun by deadly spiders. Get caught in the web of the horrific arachnids as you travel the train of terror on the old miner’s path of doom.<br /><br />And of course the Scare Zones:<br /><br /><br />SCARE ZONES:<br />GHOST TOWN – Ghost Town<br />With 36 years of the finest thrills and chills, Ghost Town keeps’em screaming. Welcome back to Halloween Haunt’s first and world famous scare zone. The fog-filled streets are lined with ghouls, ghosts, and things that slide in the night.<br /><br />THE GAUNTLET – Camp Snoopy<br />Bring out your dead! Through the plague-riddled streets of Camp Snoopy, the king ruthlessly rules his subjects through torture and cruelty. This malicious Medieval Faire features rat-eaten peasants, maniacal monks, and putrid pipers. Flee for your lives!<br /><br />CARNEVIL – The Boardwalk<br />The Boardwalk has taken an evil turn as gruesome carnival characters perform their bizarre side-shows and evil clowns show their true colors.Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-86683874555551147292009-07-19T10:14:00.000-07:002009-07-19T10:33:04.987-07:00Hi kids! :cough cough:I have been away for a while and I apologize for that. I have come down with a case of the yuckies. Seems the constant torture I have put on my mind and body finally caught up with me. <br /><br />I started feeling bad on Wed. Thursday I had off, so what do I do instead of spending it with Jack filming the new episode? Stay in bed all day. I go back to work a 10 hour shift on Fri and my boss freaks out, saying you need to go home. Well, that didn't happen as there was no one else available. <br /><br />So I say I will stick it out but I will take Sat off to get better. Which I do feel quite a bit better, if not 100% yet. I cannot wait to see just what I have in store for me being gone that one day and all. I received 6 work related emails just yesterday and I'm sure there are more floating waiting for me. <br /><br />As it is, there are talks of my GM stepping down as she feels she is not being treated properly. The other person in the office seems to believe that <span style="font-style:italic;">she</span> is the one in charge. Now she has asked me to report to her, which I do, but then she gets upset when I go to my GM. Now if I understand correctly, the GM is the next in command, then this person. Isn't that breaking the chain if I go to the other person first?<br /><br />I don't quite get it, but okay. Since most of the issues I take to my GM are hotel related and the other person there has NO hotel experience, who should I go to, hmmm? Now my GM says that she doesn't want the stupid drama and if the other person wants the glory, then fine. But she had better be prepared for the gory stuff as well. <br /><br />That's the problem. You see, when dealing with guests, it's not always happy moments. Most of it is, but there are those times when it really sucks to be in guest service as I'm sure I have posted here at some occasions. You cannot lose your temper or even jump to conclusions. <br /><br />Like it or not, 90% of the time, the guest is right. And even that 10% will try to prove they're right also. It's work, and that's what you do. I do it because I love it. Yeah, it may be a pain in my ass sometimes, but if went smoothly all the time, it'd be boring. And who wants that?<br /><br />I will find out next week what is going to happen. There is also rumors of me getting bumped to manager. I have been wanting that for so long. I won't hold my breath, but I will continue to bust out with the super duper guest servicey attitude that is me. I know they notice. At least I should be getting a raise with all the extra work and hours I put in.<br /><br />I'll keep you all posted. Love to all.Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-38425984744819523792009-07-03T01:46:00.000-07:002009-07-03T03:09:55.514-07:00I'm excited!I'm off for 4th of July! It's weird as I won't be able to shoot off fireworks since the kids dad doesn't live in the house where fireworks are legal anymore.<br /><br />Besides, it will just be Jack, Keith and I as Alex will spending it with her boyfriend and his family. Which I am glad they are together. I don't know what the future will bring for them, but for now they are happy and taking it slow.<br /><br />So I really have no clue just what I am doing that day. We have been invited to Jack's uncle's. I was kind of thinking of going to Huntington Beach like before with my boys but I haven't heard anything from either one of them.<br /><br />I have a hankering to make my potato salad regardless as it is summer and Jack loves it. Hmmm, maybe I will make it anyhow.Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-58008188515549775702009-06-28T21:31:00.000-07:002009-06-28T21:36:26.714-07:00RIP, Michael Jackson<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOruxRoZpzxXEduMXiLVqZpGHrHfKZHJLFmhnqPaV8cVLbGiH38QH2M-opwHjwZbEVXIbIcF-GaT7q2bVMm9rp3e0K87Br7lkwvK571O-HgFGppwUYNeb5O7-Xe4cwxjZ9YoM3WHnDFH4/s1600-h/MichaelJacksonThriller25thCover.jpg"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 181px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOruxRoZpzxXEduMXiLVqZpGHrHfKZHJLFmhnqPaV8cVLbGiH38QH2M-opwHjwZbEVXIbIcF-GaT7q2bVMm9rp3e0K87Br7lkwvK571O-HgFGppwUYNeb5O7-Xe4cwxjZ9YoM3WHnDFH4/s200/MichaelJacksonThriller25thCover.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5352603610312270978" /></a><br /><br />Now I have not written in my journal for a while and I'm sorry.<br /><br />But today I am posting something that I feel I really need to say..<br /><br />After going onto some of the forums that I post on, I saw so many that are negative. So, this is what I had to say to everyone:<br /><br />-Ah, I get to be the unpopular one yet again. I am going to use the statement I said on my Facebook after I had posted a picture with "RIP Michael, you will be missed" and then receiving a few snide remarks.<br /><br />"You are entitled to your opinion, but I know in my case I am sad he is gone. He was an amazing entertainer, regardless of his personal life.<br /><br />And I am sure I am not alone in thinking that."<br /><br />I didn't find jokes about him funny when he was alive either. Maybe that makes me the odd duck out, but I was never ashamed to say I was a fan. Ever.<br /><br />Too many folks forget or choose not to acknowledge just how many musicians and others in the industry owe their careers to his innovations and imagination.<br /><br />I am not saying he didn't have some eccentricities. But what celebrity doesn't or didn't?<br /><br />Who out there watched that Thriller video and thought so many different things and grew up to do them? Such as Rick Baker's makeup or John Landis' directing? Or being a band and knowing that they could push that envelope a bit more instead of the same things that were popular at the time?<br /><br />I'm not saying he's a god, but take out your cd collection today. Look at it and think, "If Michael hadn't done all the things he did in his life, would this even exist?" I'd bet it wouldn't.<br /><br />That's my soapbox and I'll thank you to put it back when you're done.-<br /><br />And that is all for now.Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-62524313258008643412009-06-17T12:21:00.000-07:002009-06-17T13:01:22.661-07:00It's been one hell of a week againOkay, grab the popcorn.<br /><br />So I really feel that my job is out to kill me. I know that it would be a lot more responsibility and I have accepted that. But it just gets a new star added.<br /> <br />Found out that the part time Auditor was up to more stupid nonsense. Now I knew they had been looking for a reason to fire him, so he's gone. Well, I get a phone call that morning asking me if I could work Audit if needed this week.<br /><br />Geez, what am I going to say, no? Since there are now only the full time Auditor and myself that have any knowledge. Yeah..<br /><br />So this week I am working my usual 6 days with a twist. I am off today, which I will explain why in a moment. But on Thurs and Fri I am working the glorious Audit shift from 12am-6am. Oh joy.<br /><br />Look, it's not that I mind it, okay I do a little. But what else can I do until I train someone? Which drives me nuts since I had been saying that another person should be trained a long time ago.<br /><br />Hopefully, I can fix the schedule to make this all work and me not have to work Audit. But there's another glitch, kids. All of my selfish staff have "issues" for weekend work. I know I have complained about this before, but damn it. It's flippin' nightmarish, really.<br /><br />Guess what? Either I work Audit and one of you bites the bullet to work my night shift on the weekend or you train to work Audit 2 nights. I will NOT work Saturday mid shift after getting off work at 6am to come back at 2pm that same day. You're all crackers if you think that's going to happen.<br /><br />As it is, I am now expected to pick up the slack if someone calls in. "You're on salary now." I get it, but that does not mean that these jokers can constantly take advantage. If that's the case, clean house and start over. Hey, it's summer. I'm sure people will be lining up. <br /><br />And if I am involved in the hiring process, I will tell you exactly who will cut it and who won't. Do I sound cynical enough yet? Good. I love my job, but it is annoying when others don't share that vision. Gah.<br /><br />Okay, for the second half of my rant.<br /><br />The reason I am off today is my daughter is graduating high school. Yes, I am proud and excited. But there are a few things that have really bothered me, especially in this last few days. There have been some issues with her attitude that I have not addressed simply for the fact I just want the graduation to happen first. Then it's a bucket of reality dumped onto her head.<br /><br />There is quite a laundry list, but I will address the one that is burning in me at this present time. I got a phone call yesterday while I was at work. Which of course when it always happens. My daughter says that she will spending the day with her dad today. Okay, that's good. He hasn't seen her for a while and they should hang out and talk.<br /><br />Then I get it dropped on me. "Dad is taking me to graduation." I'm sorry, what? I didn't let her have it, but I was mad, no I was pissed. Just like that? After Jack has been getting up at 6am for you to take you to school and various things. And then pick you up when your random friends parents couldn't take you home?<br /><br />Part of that was because of his work schedule, but sheesh. It's not really that far, but our car cannot take it. Is it too much to ask for just once, maybe? No, every time. I understand it's not their responsibility, but it sure was funny that she would get home when she wanted to. <br /><br />But that graduation comment really hurt. He abandoned his kids. Yeah, I said it. And what am I, a roof over your head? That's all? I don't check on you and see how everything is ? I don't pay attention to you or give you enough love? But he blows back into town for 4 days and oh, whatever, bye Mom.<br /><br />I am really upset about this. More than I thought I was. So, after he goes back to his little shack up North, I am going to have a long discussion with my dear daughter. Because the me me me is over. She is going to understand EVERYTHING is going to be different. She is an adult now. Time to get off your duff and get a job. <br /><br />I don't have the luxury, even though I am a Supervisor now and make a little more money to let her just go to college and not contribute to the house. So I'm sure it will be a war and I don't care. If she feels she cannot handle it, I'm sure her Dad will let her move back in. Until she pisses him off, which I would give a week before that happened.<br /><br />Don't misunderstand, though. I don't want her to leave, not at all. And I would not say that to her. But it's a hard life and we all have to survive. Jack and I are a team. She needs to be a part of that. <br /><br />Arrgh, this is way too long. I am going to stop now. I will post her pics later this week.Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-90838401148815441012009-06-01T23:00:00.000-07:002009-06-01T23:40:16.994-07:00It just gets betterSheesh, not only did I totally mis-understand just what "business clothes" meant, but I got handed a whole bunch of stuff to do today.<br /><br />Go me! <br /><br />Apparently I am supposed to wear a suit, yep a suit kids. Skirt, blazer all that fun stuffs. I cannot afford that. So we reached a compromise. If I get some nice blouses and pants for now, then they will get me a suit later. <br /><br />And I am in charge of making the schedule now. Which unless we hire someone,(which isn't bloody likely anytime soon) I will be working 6 days for a while. The people left have all kinds of restrictions for their work. I don't want to be the bad guy, but something's gotta give.<br /><br />I noticed that only 2 people are working on the weekends. Myself and one other. That is definitely not right and I intend to find out why. I am not going to get burnt out being here EVERY single weekend. It's expected that EVERYONE that works at a hotel should be busy on the weekend and I believe too many shady deals went down at one point, so that excuse after excuse makes it so they cannot work.<br /><br />There's a new sheriff in town, kids and guess what? I'm taking no prisoners. I will tread lightly at first, of course. Don't worry.<br /><br />Then I get told oh yeah, you are supposed to email the company that makes our business cards to get some for you. Huh? Okay, so I get the contact information and I'm sure sound like a total dork when I emailed. <br /><br />It is pretty exciting though. I will have my own business cards. Yay!<br /><br /><br /><br />I am very tired and I hope that I can organize it all to a good ending soon. Keep your fingers crossed.Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-77988179259003387332009-05-31T18:38:00.000-07:002009-05-31T20:05:23.057-07:00The earthquake is over and the ground has settled..hopefullyOkay, so it's been a while since I posted. I have an excellent reason for that.<br /><br />Within these past few weeks, my GM was fired, my manager went AWOL, which ended in her termination, and I got promoted to Supervisor. Whew, that's a lot, right? So perhaps I should go back and explain a bit better, shall I?<br /><br />So, our next to last training meeting, we had..no wait, I need to go back farther than that. There was an accountant brought in by the owners about a month ago to begin looking over some discrepancies. Now she also started to ask questions of staff about other people's work habits.<br /><br />I was honest when she questioned me without giving too much personal opinion. At least I thought so. She asked me about my GM, what her work schedule was and how often did I actually see her. Now if you work in a place such as mine, it's like a small town. Everyone pretty much knows already, but they want to see if you'll lie.<br /><br />I said what I knew and left it at that. Fast forward to the next to last training meeting. I walk in and people were acting so weird. We all find out later that the GM is not longer employed and the Sales manager is now acting GM. Wow, talk about strange.<br /><br />After that happens, my manager starts to get all paranoid and think that she's next. Seeing as her and the GM came from the same hotel before and were friends. I tell her that if she is doing her job, she has nothing to worry about. She still is stressing out and I of course cannot convince her otherwise.<br /><br />Now the accountant with the owner's permission, begins to make the schedule. This does not sit well with my manager at all. I get some reduced hours, but I take it in stride since we are a hotel and things like that tend to happen. I also know it is a temporary situation. But it becomes an issue for others.<br /><br />One of the staff members is my manager's friend and he decides that he doesn't want to be patient about his dwindling hours and quits. That wasn't really too big of a shock though. He was not happy here and his lack of guest service reflected that. <br /><br />Then on May 24th at about 3:15pm, I receive a phone call from my manager. She sounds like she's crying and says she can't make the schedule. I asked her if she was okay. She also said that she had called the Sales manager and that she wasn't able to get ahold of her, but that she believed that yesterday was her last day at the hotel. Then the phone went dead. I called the Sales manager to let her know the situation.<br /><br />She said she would call my manager and get back to me when she could. The accountant called as well to find out what was happening. I told her what I knew so far and she said that if I heard anything else to let her know. The Sales manager called me back and asked if I could stay until 8pm as it seemed that my manager was not coming in at all.<br /> <br />That my manager had said to her that she was done with the hotel and that she didn't want to explain anything, but that she was just done. I said I would stay and then she asked for Night Audit's number which I gave to her. I then looked in the back and noticed that my manager's picture collage was no longer there and it was hanging there yesterday as it has been for the almost 2 years I've been here.<br /><br />So I was a bit confused since I saw my manager the day before and she seemed fine. Perhaps it is a temporary situation and she just wants to blow off steam. I am wondering though that it is Memorial Day weekend and she is scheduled to be off tomorrow, so why not call in today to not work your 6pm to 12am shift? Maybe that is mean, but it did cross my mind.<br /><br />She only worked a 12pm to 6pm shift that day before, so my logic wasn't a unheard of thing. I was just hoping I'm not right. I figured we shall see on Tues. which way it goes. I really don't see her just quitting like that. Unless she got a better deal somewhere else. But still, I don't understand.<br /><br />Nothing is heard at all until the 26th. I get told that there will be some interviews for manager next week and that I am in the top three candidates. I say wow, thank you and I look forward to that. I ask about my manager and am told that it's not for me to worry over. I say okay.<br /><br />Then I get asked by the accountant to come speak to her after my shift. I do so and she says she has something to tell me. She says you cannot wear that uniform anymore. I say why? She says because you are no longer a front desk person. I get a little scared. She says you have to wear business clothes from now on. She says that I am being promoted to Supervisor. <br /><br />Wow! We discuss everything and I sign a 3 month probation contract. Which after that time, it will be decided whether to promote me to manager or not. Now I am sweating bullets as even though I know I can do the job, since I was doing most of it anyway, I really have to step up the guest service and employee morale part of it.<br /><br />I am also concerned that some staff may think I was after my manager's job that whole time. Which is nonsense, but hey, people are funny when it comes to changes. So I go out and get a few items which I think are more businessy. What do I know? I've been wearing a uniform for almost 6 years. It was very odd buying things that would give me more of a professional look.<br /><br />A memo gets posted and various staff members congratulate me. But then I am asked yesterday to write a statement about what happened that day when my manager called in. I say I will and I come in a bit early to write it. Now of course, I don't sit in the front as then guests will assume I'm working. <br /><br />I sit at the manager's desk in the back and set my things down. Of course I just finish and print it when lo and behold, the accountant walks in with my manager. Huh, awkward much? Anyhow of course, I show my manners and step back to show my respect while my manager takes care of taking whatever is left at the desk of her personal property. She takes great pains to not look at or address me unless she has to. And hmm, she seems to be in VERY good spirits unlike the last conversation I had with her.<br /><br />Which makes me laugh a bit since what did she think would happen? She was the one who deserted the hotel and we all picked up the slack and moved on. Yes, I would have waited just a few days more (for my promotion and all that) until after she had signed the exit papers and was no longer coming to property, but that's me.<br /><br />Now we are getting back on track and pulling together as a unit. I have re-assured everyone that asked that we are a team and my promotion is to help us all reach the common goal of a successful hotel. That's where my desire lies. Not for power or that stupid stuff. I am not going to be someone that forgets where they come from. I was born in the trenches and I'll die in the trenches, right next to my co-workers. That's what teamwork, real teamwork is all about.<br /><br />I think one of the things I have in my favor is that everyone I work with sees that it's not a phase, and that I truly do give a damn, that I have from the beginning. That is what I believe will help push us all to greatness.<br /><br />I will keep everyone posted more, I promise. But now you all know why I have been absent for a while.Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-10959397222467651892009-05-19T14:15:00.000-07:002009-05-19T14:25:00.921-07:00I learned a new word today!So, I come into work and go to fetch my timecard out of my box to clock in. It is not in its usual place, so I have to pull out a few things to find it. A piece of paper that I have not seen before catches my eye.<br /><br />I read and start to laugh. The girl I am relieving looks at me. She asks why am I laughing? I say, "Look, someone has left their vocabulary homework in my box. Wasn't that nice of them to share their knowledge?" <br /><br />She says, "What are you talking about?" I hand her the paper and she looks at it, then looks at me. I am still laughing as she says how mean is that. I just shrug my shoulders and say, "It's great I can further my education even at work. What a helpful individual!"<br /><br />She says, "Wow. That's messed up. Why would someone do that?" I just laugh again and put the paper back into my box. She leaves as I am still cracking up.<br /><br />The big joke is that someone placed a paper with the word hypocrite complete with the definition on it for me to read. <br /><br />Awww, I feel so special. That I was chosen to receive the word of the day. What an honor!<br /><br />LMAO!!!Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-85944866645228956212009-05-16T18:39:00.000-07:002009-05-16T18:52:10.889-07:00It has been a heck of a weekI know, I know. Where's Ruthie's updates, I'm sure you're asking. Well, here we go. So I come into work on Wed. for a training meeting. We all find out our GM has been let go that day. So of course everyone freaks out about it. Me, I sit back and figure well, if you are doing your job, you have nothing to worry about.<br /><br />Or if the owners decide to just get rid of everyone, then you deal with it. That's just how it is. The only problem is that there are some shady dealings going down and I am trying so desperately not to get shoved into the middle. I found out that some other staff members were saying that I should be gotten rid of if layoffs are to happen.<br /><br />Yeah. Well, it's because I am actually a threat. Go figure. I am just doing my job, people. Yes, I do want to move up and expand my knowledge, okay? But wow, it is getting so Spy vs. Spy vs. Spy, it's crazy. Everyone wants tabs on everyone else.<br /><br />I don't know what to do except I will tell anyone that tries to sway me that I am loyal to the company and anything dealing with upper management should be handled by upper management. I cannot and will not be forced to write any documentation or say anything to the contrary. <br /><br />If I get fired, so be it. I am looking out for what's best for the hotel, not myself. That's what matters to me. Doing my best to help make it a success, not get involved in drama. So I will take my reduced hours for now in total confidence that it will all straighten out soon.<br /><br />Keep your fingers crossed.Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9003808203186055243.post-275017430344283792009-05-08T08:24:00.000-07:002009-05-08T08:45:10.572-07:00It turns out I clean up rather wellSo I spent some time with my sister yesterday and she took some really nice photos!<br /><br />I am only going to post one of my favorites for now. I really would like to have this one framed to hang in my house.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjNJeVpkfNtwx6K6yk34C1jBJMrqB5i7yW0ZubxPAPU_FZXGUtNoVhSRz9mOJOYprrRmde5C2uomy51aYAHPhRkg_3f-Ex8FnQwoiwaSaX_xeACy_jzxVNliimvJPblo3usSYpiwC497eY/s1600-h/Ruth+120.JPG"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 134px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjNJeVpkfNtwx6K6yk34C1jBJMrqB5i7yW0ZubxPAPU_FZXGUtNoVhSRz9mOJOYprrRmde5C2uomy51aYAHPhRkg_3f-Ex8FnQwoiwaSaX_xeACy_jzxVNliimvJPblo3usSYpiwC497eY/s200/Ruth+120.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5333475108421256338" /></a><br /><br />Yesterday was full of good news as I finally got to speak to the PR lady from Knott's. It seems that everything is a go. The biggest issue will be cutting a lot of guests out, but that's what the reception will be for. <br /><br />It's either only have immediate folks there and do this for free or have EVERYONE and charge a fee at the church door. My extended family and friends should understand. If not, well...too bad. I love you, but who's wedding is it anyway?<br /><br />Yes, it may sound a bit selfish. But I look at it this way. Not only is this our special day, Jack and I will not be mingling afterwards. We will be filming our Haunt show, so it's also business. <br /><br />So I have to really trim the guest list. Which I have already done considerably. Besides, everyone just wants to go to the reception anyhow. That's fun and has food and music! Our wedding will be on October 8th, at either 4 or 5pm. That's so the monsters can be there and we can get arranged at the maze. <br /><br />Oh, speaking of that..turns out that 13 Axe is gone. :tear: But in its place will be a maze featuring old time London Streets. Yep, a Jack The Ripper maze! Well, that's right up our alley, isn't it? It will have a carriage out in front as well. I'm so excited. We were talking (Jack and I) and since it will be more along the lines of that era, no more vampirey stuffs. More on a Mary Kelly kind of look.<br /><br />Still Victorian, but damn it, I get to wear PURPLE! Yay! Here is the dress I want. Imagine this is purple.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVSresZUp4NtwCFgbWi3BUmQqxtmdiqLdKPfeG7jFvxotH9e61ZsUHPDf5ekMdxOzY8Fe8hUL6fK3X2jyo1R3IVTPfdqh4ypZzIKiOS72DhgjBVcs80By4fo7Diq-mWLAcMxcOQAVA50Y/s1600-h/www82.jpg"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 134px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVSresZUp4NtwCFgbWi3BUmQqxtmdiqLdKPfeG7jFvxotH9e61ZsUHPDf5ekMdxOzY8Fe8hUL6fK3X2jyo1R3IVTPfdqh4ypZzIKiOS72DhgjBVcs80By4fo7Diq-mWLAcMxcOQAVA50Y/s200/www82.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5333478489907617010" /></a><br /><br />Yes, it's not exactly period, but who cares? It's Grade A awesomeness. And it does fit in with my Autumn theme. I will wear a purple dress, a black veil and have an orange bouquet. I will BE Halloween colors.<br /><br />Ooh, I am so excited!Ruthiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15279920430591048343noreply@blogger.com4